Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Lies, Bombs, And known connections.

Same old same old on the Obama front. Thank you Mr. Obama for lieing to us once again. How can there be change with the same old people in power? How does bringing Clinton (whom you talked sooo much crap about! but oh....another change of heart?) in as Secretary of State change anything? Or does change just mean bringing in all the same tired old democrats?
I want this T-shirt for christmas.
Or this one too....

Friday, November 21, 2008

Anyone can dig a hole, but it takes a real man to call it home.

I'm no leader I'm just a mess
It's not the way it's supposed to be
It's just the way that it is
I'm afraid we are all victims here
And the one whose in charge
I've lead us all astray again
Oh, how the plot thickens!
Are we too far gone?
We always assume the worst
I'm afraid no ones listening anymore
I'm freaking out
I'm so sick
I'm making me sick
Don't look down
The only thing in my way is myself
I'm just thinking out loud
How can I still be alive
I should've been gone so long ago
I can't get away from it all
I messed up like I always do
I gave you nothing
I took you nowhere
You're still listening
The world around me
Has taken a turn for the worst
I'm left alone
Climbing to the top
Should I jump should I stay
Can I make another day
I am the one whose wrong
God forgive me

Friday, November 14, 2008

I dont know what your bible says, but mine says this...

"God created man in his image; in the divine image he created him; male and female he created them" (Genesis 1:27)




"With [the tongue] we bless the Lord and Father, and with it we curse human beings who are made in the image of God . . . This ought not be so, brothers" (James 3:9-10).



The image of God! This is what it means to be human! We are not just a bunch of cells randomly thrown together by some impersonal forces. Rather, we really reflect an eternal God who knew us from before we were made, and purposely called us into being.





When the first mother brought forth the first child, she exclaimed, "I have brought forth a man with the help of the Lord" (Genesis 4:1). "The help of the Lord "





Thus says the LORD, "For three transgressions of the sons of Ammon and for four I will not revoke its punishment, Because they ripped open the pregnant women of Gilead..." (Amos 1:13)





"Truly children are a gift from the Lord; the fruit of the womb is a reward" (Psalm 127:3).





"For You formed my inward parts;You wove me in my mother's womb"(Psalm 139:13).





But when God, who had set me apart even from my mother's womb and called me through His grace, was pleased (Galatians 1:15).





"They mutilated their sons and daughters by fire…till the Lord, in his great anger against Israel, put them away out of his sight..." (2 Kings 17:17-18).

Now the word of the LORD came to me saying, "Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, and before you were born I consecrated you; I have appointed you a prophet to the nations." (Jeremiah 1:4-5)




"This is the message you have heard from the beginning: we should love one another, unlike Cain who belonged to the evil one and slaughtered his brother" (1 John 3:11-12). Love is directly contrasted with slaughter. To take the life of another is to break the command of love. To fail to help those in need and danger is also to fail to love. Christ teaches this clearly in the parable of the Good Samaritan (Luke 10:25-37), in the story of the rich man and Lazarus (Luke 16:19-31), and in many other places.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Second post of the day. I figure i owe it to our wonderful president-elect to write two posts about his glory!







































Terrorist =


Obama Worked With Terrorist - Senator Helped Fund Organization That Rejects 'Racist' Israel's Existence -- Aaron Klein Reports from Jerusalem

The board of a nonprofit organization on which Sen. Barack Obama served as a paid director alongside a confessed domestic terrorist granted funding to a controversial Arab group that mourns the establishment of Israel as a "catastrophe" and supports intense immigration reform, including providing drivers licenses and education to illegal aliens.

The co-founder of the Arab group in question, Columbia University professor Rashid Khalidi, also has held a fundraiser for Obama. Khalidi is a harsh critic of Israel, has made statements supportive of Palestinian terror and reportedly has worked on behalf of the Palestine Liberation Organization while it was involved in anti-Western terrorism and was labeled by the State Department as a terror group.



The Obamas at an Arab fundraising dinner with Edward Said and his wife
In 2001, the Woods Fund, a Chicago-based nonprofit that describes itself as a group helping the disadvantaged, provided a $40,000 grant to the Arab American Action Network, or AAAN, for which Khalidi's wife, Mona, serves as president. The Fund provided a second grant to the AAAN for $35,000 in 2002.

Obama was a director of the Woods Fund board from 1999 to Dec. 11, 2002, according to the Fund's website. According to tax filings, Obama received compensation of $6,000 per year for his service in 1999 and 2001.

Obama served on the Wood's Fund board alongside William C. Ayers, a member of the Weathermen terrorist group which sought to overthrow of the U.S. government and took responsibility for bombing the U.S. Capitol in 1971 .



Ayers, who still serves on the Woods Fund board, contributed $200 to Obama's senatorial campaign fund and has served on panels with Obama at numerous public speaking engagements. Ayers admitted to involvement in the bombings of U.S. governmental buildings in the 1970s. He is a professor at the University of Illinois at Chicago.

The $40,000 grant from Obama's Woods Fund to the AAAN constituted about a fifth of the Arab group's reported grants for 2001, according to tax filings obtained by WND. The $35,000 Woods Fund grant in 2002 also constituted about one-fifth of AAAN's reported grants for that year.

Speakers at AAAN dinners and events routinely have taken an anti-Israel line.

The AAAN website currently states the entire site is under construction.


AAAN co-founder Rashid Khalidi was reportedly a director of the official PLO press agency WAFA in Beirut from 1976 to 1982, while the PLO committed scores of anti-Western attacks and was labeled by the U.S. as a terror group. Khalidi's wife, AAAN President Mona Khalidi, was reportedly WAFA's English translator during that period.

Rashid Khalidi at times has denied working directly for the PLO but Palestinian diplomatic sources in Ramallah told WND he indeed directed WAFA. Khalidi also advised the Palestinian delegation to the Madrid Conference in 1991.

During documented speeches and public events, Khalidi has called Israel an "apartheid system in creation" and a destructive "racist" state.

He has multiple times expressed support for Palestinian terror, calling suicide bombings response to "Israeli aggression." He dedicated his 1986 book, "Under Siege," to "those who gave their lives ... in defense of the cause of Palestine and independence of Lebanon." Critics assailed the book as excusing Palestinian terrorism.

While the Woods Fund's contribution to Khalidi's AAAN might be perceived as a one-time run in with Obama, the presidential hopeful and Khalidi evidence a deeper relationship.

According to a professor at the University of Chicago who said he has known Obama for 12 years, the Democratic presidential hopeful first befriended Khalidi when the two worked together. The professor spoke on condition of anonymity.

Khalidi in 2000 held what was described as a successful fundraiser for Obama's failed bid for a seat in the U.S. House of Representatives, a fact not denied by Khalidi.

Speaking in a joint interview with WND and the John Batchelor Show of New York's WABC Radio and Los Angeles' KFI Radio, Khalidi was asked about his 2000 fundraiser for Obama.

"I was just doing my duties as a Chicago resident to help my local politician," Khalidi stated.

Khalidi said he supports Obama for president "because he is the only candidate who has expressed sympathy for the Palestinian cause."

Khalidi also lauded Obama for "saying he supports talks with Iran. If the U.S. can talk with the Soviet Union during the Cold War, there is no reason it can't talk with the Iranians."

Asked about Obama's role funding the AAAN, Khalidi claimed he had "never heard of the Woods Fund until it popped up on a bunch of blogs a few months ago."

He terminated the call when petitioned further about his links with Obama.

Contacted by phone, Mona Khalidi refused to answer WND's questions about the AAAN's involvement with Obama.

Obama's campaign headquarters did not reply to a list of WND questions sent by e-mail to the senator's press office.

Obama, American terrorist in same circles

Obama served on the board with Ayers, who was a Weathermen leader and has written about his involvement with the group's bombings of the New York City Police headquarters in 1970, the Capitol in 1971 and the Pentagon in 1972.

"I don't regret setting bombs. I feel we didn't do enough," Ayers told the New York Times in an interview released on Sept. 11, 2001

"Everything was absolutely ideal on the day I bombed the Pentagon," Ayers wrote in his m emoirs, titled "Fugitive Days." He continued with a disclaimer that he didn't personally set the bombs, but his group set the explosives and planned the attack.

A $200 campaign contribution is listed on April 2, 2001 by the "Friends of Barack Obama" campaign fund. The two taught appeared speaking together at several public events, including a 1997 University of Chicago panel entitled, "Should a child ever be called a 'super predator?'" and another panel for the University of Illinois in April 2002, entitled, "Intellectuals: Who Needs Them?"

The charges against Ayers were dropped in 1974 because of prosecutorial misconduct, including illegal surveillance.

Ayers is married to another notorious Weathermen terrorist, Bernadine Dohrn, who has also served on panels with Obama. Dohrn was once on the FBI's Top 10 Most Wanted List and was described by J. Edgar Hoover as the "most dangerous woman in America." Ayers and Dohr n raised the son of Weathermen terrorist Kathy Boudin, who was serving a sentence for participating in a 1981 murder and robbery that left 4 people dead.

If it weren't for Ayers' comments following September 11th I'd argue that his Weathermen activities from 40 years ago weren't that important. But, in 2001, he expressed a feeling that he had left the job undone.

OooohH! Nooooo!!!

bigotry - as in, intolerant to the death of 2 million Americans a year. Yes, yes i am. And i am damn proud of it.

Hate - No.

I don't give a rats, you know, about the fact that the guy i voted for didnt win. He really wasnt the best choice anyways, but its who we got stuck with to vote for.

My statistics are not outdated. If anything, Because not all places of abortion have to submit information, there are more abortions that are not recorded. Raising the number of americans killed.

Oh, and im sorry you dont pity the two million americans killed without choice, whos blood cry out to God. Im sorry you dont. I do. And i damn well intend to show it.

No, obviously being a guy, i couldnt be the one who experienced that. No one should experience that, and that is what i "parade" for.

I have been there, in planned parent hood. Waiting on the results. I have been there and seen the people walk through. I have watch the sorrow of a best friend find out the bad news.

So what about grace to the babies? Or does that not invoke enough humanism? So what about grace to the boys and girls that are killed against there will? Lets stand for that. When someone who is close to you, someone you care about, decides to murder someone, just stand there and hold her hand and tell her its going to be ok. When she decides to kill herself, stand there, hold her hand, and tell her its going to be ok. When someone close to you decides to shoot her family, hold her hand through it all, and tell her its going to be ok. Break your heart for her, because she is obviously troubled. Dont worry about her parents, worry about her, because she is obviously in some pain. Or is that not ok to do? Because for some reason, parents, are more human, more alive, more real, then a baby?

Terrorist - Anyone who votes two million americans a year to their deaths. (or am i not entitled to my opinion?)



So its terrorism when there are two million missing in another country? But its not terrorism that there are 2 million confirmed dead every year in our own?

So because i dont speak more then one language i am un-american?

Or because i didnt cry, when my friends left to Iraq, because i was to happy for them to cry.

Or because i didnt cry when they called me in the middle of the night?

Or is it because i didnt cry when his mother called me, to tell me he was gone.

Maybe its because i didnt morn at his funeral, but instead thanked God that he lived.

Or maybe its because on my own sleepless nights, i warred between my own selfishness of wanting my other friend back and safe and knowing he is doing whats right by staying over there.

I saw his patriot face. I saw it as he lay there in his coffin. I saw his face as they read the note he left in his pocket. I looked at his face as he described what he was fighting for. "God's America".



I dont desire to move anywhere else. I desire to see the world. But i do not desire to live anywhere else but here. (ok, maybe canada)

I dont need to be wanted by anyone else. I dont need to be accepted by other people. I dont need to be a global celebrity.


Oh yeah, and no i dont think these people that go through with abortions are abominations or whatnot. I do hold them in the same regard as anyone sitting in jail for murder though. Because that is exactly what they did. I would not trust my kids around them. I would not turn my back around them. And most of the time i will be as polite to them as possible out of fear of my own death. Because whether they killed a baby or someone older, they are still murderers.

Now. As to answer your question. I loved my mother. I loved my roommate. I loved my girlfriend. I loved a guy at work. I loved 2 people on the drive to work. Now, that is a small list of how many sinners i have loved today. But it is only 7 a.m.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Baby killers Deception Continues

Some of the terrorists lies, for your reading pleasure. If you dont want to read it all, at least skip to the middle one. Oh and i think its funny that the baby killer wants to get rid of the right to bear arms, and yet votes to kill 2 million americans a year.


After months of telling the American people that he supports the Second Amendment, within hours of being declared the president-elect, the president elect’s transition team announced on their website an agenda taken straight from the anti-gun lobby. Four initiatives designed to ban guns and drive law-abiding firearm manufacturers and dealers out of business…
“Making the expired federal assault weapons ban permanent.” Perhaps no other firearm issue has been more dishonestly portrayed by gun prohibitionists. Notwithstanding their predictions that the ban’s expiration in 2004 would bring about the end of civilization, for the last four years the nation’s murder rate has been lower than anytime since the mid-1960s. Studies for Congress, the Congressional Research Service, the National Institute of Justice, the National Academy of Sciences, and the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention have found no evidence that gun prohibition or gun control reduces crime. Guns that were affected by the ban are used in only a tiny fraction of violent crime-about 35 times as many people are murdered without any sort of firearm (knives, bare hands, etc.), as with “assault weapons.” Obama says that “assault weapons” are machine guns that “belong on foreign battlefields,” but that is a lie; the guns are only semi-automatic, and they are not used by a military force anywhere on the planet.
“Repeal the Tiahrt Amendment.” The amendment–endorsed by the Fraternal Order of Police–prohibits the release of federal firearm tracing information to anyone other than a law enforcement agency conducting a bona fide criminal investigation. Anti-gun activists oppose the restriction, because it prevents them from obtaining tracing information and using it in frivolous lawsuits against law-abiding firearm manufacturers. Their lawsuits seek to obtain huge financial judgments against firearm manufacturers when a criminal uses a gun to inflict harm, even though the manufacturers have complied with all applicable laws.
“Closing the gun show loophole.” There is no “loophole.” Under federal law, a firearm dealer must conduct a background check on anyone to whom he sells a gun, regardless of where the sale takes place. A person who is not a dealer may sell a gun from his personal collection without conducting a check. Gun prohibitionists claim that many criminals obtain guns from gun shows, though the most recent federal survey of convicted felons put the figure at only 0.7 percent. They also claim that non-dealers should be required to conduct checks when selling guns at shows, but the legislation they support goes far beyond imposing that lone requirement. In fact, anti-gun members of Congress voted against that limited measure, holding out for a broader bill intended to drive shows out of business.
“Making guns in this country childproof.” “Childproof” is a codeword for a variety of schemes designed to prevent the sale of firearms by imposing impossible or highly expensive design requirements, such as biometric shooter-identification systems. While no one opposes keeping children safe, the fact is that accidental firearm-related deaths among children have decreased 86 percent since 1975, even as the numbers of children and guns have risen dramatically. Today, the chances of a child being killed in a firearm accident are less than one in a million.
Originally published by the National Rifle Association










In a small-town café in Pleasantville, Omaha, Obama was asked a question that typically only circulates on the Internet.

As he sat down to have a slice of pie with a small group of potential voters and an elderly woman asked him about being Muslim.


"I've always been a Christian," the Illinois Democrat responded. "I have never practiced [Islam]."

Note: The newspaper editors had to add the word, "Islam."

In his autobiography, "Dreams From My Father," Obama mentions studying the Quran. He was enrolled in two Jakarta schools as a Muslim. His teacher Tine Hahiyary said that she remembered that he had studied "mengaji" (recitation of the Quran)." Classmate Rony Amiris described Obama as being a very devout Muslim, saying, "Barry was previously quite religious in Islam." Another classmate, Emirsyah Satar, now the CEO of Garuda Indonesia, was quoted as saying, "He (Obama) was often in the prayer room wearing a 'sarong.'" (See Obama's Education.)

Yet, on his official campaign website, Obama has posted this statement, "Barack has never been a Muslim or practiced any other faith besides Christianity."

Obama's grandfather was a Muslim. Obama's father was a Muslim. Obama's stepfather was a Muslim. His African relatives are Muslims. What was he for the 27 years before his alleged conversion if he wasn't a Muslim?


If Obama has always been a Christian, why was he enrolled in two Jakarta schools as a Muslim, and why did he study the Quran?



And note his Clintonesque defense, "I have never practiced."

But that's not what Obama's sister says -- in an interview with the New York Times, published on April 30th, Maya Soetoro-Ng, Obama’s younger half sister, told the Times, "My whole family was Muslim, and most of the people I knew were Muslim." (Alternate link)

I assume Maya thinks of her brother, Obama, as a member of her family?

And, the Jerusalem Post reports that Barack Obama's half brother Malik said, if elected, his brother will be a good president for the Jewish people, despite his Muslim background.



This is Obama's biggest problem -- his dissimulation.

Saying, "I've always been a Christian," is a bold-faced lie. Especially since he's never been baptized.











LAS CRUCES, N.M -- Despite not having served in the military himself, Barack Obama used his Memorial Day remarks to speak about his family’s service. "My grandfather marched in Patton’s army, but I cannot know what it is to walk into battle like so many of you," he told a small group of veterans here.

And speaking of his typical white grandmother, he said -- "My grandmother worked on a bomber assembly line, but I cannot know what it is for a family to sacrifice like so many of yours have."

Obama also spoke about his typical white uncle, who was part of the American brigade that helped to liberate Auschwitz. He said the family legend is that, upon returning from war, his uncle spent six months in an attic.

First lie! -- Wow! Very dramatic! The problem is that Auschwitz of course is in Poland. It was liberated by the Red Army on January 27th, 1945. Poland, on most maps is usually placed to the east of Germany, although we may need to investigate the geography textbooks the Obamessiah used as a child.

The Allies were wrapping up the battle of the bulge in late January of 1945 -- the Rhine crossings were still well into the future when Auschwitz was liberated.

Either Obama’s uncle served in the Red Army, or he’s spinning Clintonesque lies about Auschwitz to sell his government programs. Hey, it’s for a good cause…but it’s not enough for him. It has to be personal. It has to be all about him.

Second lie! -- Obama has no uncles. His mother Anna was an only child, and Obama Sr. had two sisters.

Oh, it's not a lie, his campaign says he made a mistake -- he just made another gaffe in the growing collection of documented Obama's gaffes -- it was his great-uncle and it was a sub-camp of Buchenwald, but who cares about these little details, right?

AGAIN? -- well, it turns out that he's told this tale before, in 2002 -- except he identifies his typical white grandfather as the liberator.

"My grandfather signed up for a war the day after Pearl Harbor was bombed, fought in Patton’s army. He saw the dead and dying across the fields of Europe; he heard the stories of fellow troops who first entered Auschwitz and Treblinka. He fought in the name of a larger freedom, part of that arsenal of democracy that triumphed over evil, and he did not fight in vain."


Third lie! -- Obama's grandfather enlisted on June 18, 1942.

Fourth lie! -- In his autobiography, "Dreams of My Father," Obama states his grandfather never engaged in combat. "Gramps returned from the war never having seen real combat, and the family moved to California, where he enrolled at Berkeley under the GI bill."

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

This calls for the score to be settled, in the octogon!




Rd. 1
Obama circles, using his clear reach advantage to keep out of danger. Mccain attempts a takedown but it is stuffed by obama. Obama picks up the pace and lands a beautiful kick flush to mccains head. Mccain has a chin though, and keeps pressing forward. Mccain looks frustrated with Obama's jab, as he has such a distinct reach advantage. Mccain lands a solid leg kick. Obama answers with a left hook that sends Mccain to the floor. After a few attempts to pass, Obama lands in Mccains gaurd. Mccain looks to have recovered and has the advantage on the ground, with his sambo training, and the long limbs of Obama, it looks like only a matter of time before he will make Obama tap. Mccain attempts a triangle, But Obama stands up through it, using Mccains hieght handicap against him. Obama slams back down with a thunderous right hand that hits Mccain square in the temple. Obama tries to finish with a barage of punches. It looks like the end for Mccain. Wait. Mccain secures an arm. He uses the arm to sweep Obama. Obama scrambles. MCCAIN TAKES HIS BACK. He throws a couple rabbit punches to Obamas head. He looks for the choke. OBAMA TAPS! Mccain wins via Rear Naked Choke.
Looks like his experience played a factor in the end.

Monday, November 3, 2008

GO OBAMA!

I dare you to read all of this. Most people wont, because they don't want to see how wrong it is.

I dare you.







Did you know that 1,800,000 babies are aborted annually? That's 1 million 8 hundred thousand.









Since the war in Iraq started on 3/19/03, 3389 soldiers have died. (thank god for them) It would take 3083 years in Iraq to kill the same amount of babies we abort in 1 year.










The Number of American battle deaths in all U.S. wars since 1776 is 654,000. That means we abort 2.75 times more babies a year than all wars combined since 1776!








(don't know how true this one is)
Here is one for you people who value the economy more then 8 million babies lives.
Abortions Cost Economy $35 Trillion Since 1970 in Lost Productivity http://www.freerepublic.com/focus/f-news/2104791/posts








Here is a fun fact for those of you who think smoking is such a bad idea.
Years of life expectancy lost by the average smoker - 7 years.
Years of life expectancy lost by the average aborted baby: 77 years.









Did you know that 2,974 victims died on 911. So then EACH YEAR, we carry out equal to 605, September 11's.











Since 1970, 50,500,000 babies have been aborted. THAT'S over 50 MILLION.










6,000,000 Jews were killed in the Holocaust. That means something like, EVERY 3.3 YEARS, we commit a Holocaust on American babies.











So hey, lets vote for someone who repeatedly voted for the worst kind of abortion. Lets vote for someone who thinks its OK to kill 8 million babies during his term, and if you don't care about human lives, trillions of dollars during his term.
All i know, is i value 2 million babies lives over anything i own. I value 2 million babies lives over any amount of money i could make in my lifetime. I would give up my job for 2 million babies. I would give up my car and my home for 2 million babies. I would live on the street, if it allowed 2 million babies to live. I don't know what kind of sick twisted person you are to put ANYTHING over the value of 2 million babies, but I would give anything for them.
I just want to say thanks. Thank you for putting that check mark next to Obama's name. Thank you for killing that many babies, who never had a chance. Its almost unforgivable.

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Bad.

I want to be someones Hero.

I want to do that much good in someones life. I want to be that kind of person.

I dont want the recognition. I just want to touch someone that much. I want to do that much good.

I want to be someones Hero.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Places i want to go before i die. Episode 2

Iguazu Falls Parana, Brazil/Misiones Argentina





























Friday, October 17, 2008

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Admit it!

Admit it! Despite your pseudo-bohemian appearance and vaguely leftist doctrine of beliefs, you know nothing about art or sex that you couldn't read in any trendy New York underground fashion magazine. Prototypical non-conformist, you are a vacuous soldier of the thrift store Gestapo. You adhere to a set of standards and tastes that appear to be determined by an unseen panel of hipster judges, giving a thumbs up or thumbs down to incoming and outgoing trends and styles of music and art. Go analog baby, you're so post-modern. You're diving face forward into a antiquated path. It's disgusting, it's offensive, don't stick your nose up at me.

You spend your time sitting in circles with your friends, pontificating to each other, forever competing for that one moment of self-aggrandizing glory. In which, you hog the intellectual spotlight. Holding dominion over the entire shallow pointless conversation. Oh, we're not worthy. When you walk by a group of quote-unquote normal people, you chuckle to yourself patting yourself on the back as you scoff. It's the same superiority complex shared by the high school jocks who made your life a living hell, and makes you a slave to the competitive capitalist dogma. You spend every moment of your waking life complaining.

Cause I'm proud of my life and the things that I have done, Proud of myself and the loner I've become. You're free to whine, it will not get you far. I do just fine, me and my car. Well let me tell you this, I am shamelessly self-involved. I spend hours in front of the mirror, making my hair elegantly disheveled. I self medicate to treat my extreme social anxiety.

You are a faker, you are a fraud. Yeah, you're living a lie, living a lie, you're life is living a lie. You don't impress me, you don't intimidate me. Why don't you bow down, get on the ground, walk this stupid plank. Yeah, what do you have to say for yourself .

I am done with this.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Give me the opportunities

I can do this.

Phillippians 4:13
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

2 Timothy 1:7
God has not given us a spirit of timidity, but of power and love and discipline.

John 15:5
"I am the vine, you are the branches; Those who remain in me, and I in them, will produce much fruit. For apart from me you can do nothing."

James 5:16
"...The effective prayer of a righteous man can accomplish much."

1 John 4:4
"You are of God little children, and have overcome them; Because greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world.

Nehemiah 8:10
"...Do not be grieved, for the joy of the LORD is your strength."

Isaiah 40:29
He gives strength to the weary,
And to him who lacks might He increases power.

Ephesians 6:10
Finally, be strong in the LORD and in the strength of his might.

Matthew 17:20
And He said to them "Because of the littleness of your faith; for truly i say to you, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, 'move from here to there,' and it will move; and nothing will be impossible to you.

Monday, October 6, 2008

Wow, ok this was longer then i expected.

How do i say this.

Its such a weird feeling. I never expected it would feel like this. I never truly experienced it in this way. Most of my past relationships ( Ive had 3) involved meeting her, shortly after meeting her dating her. Liking her a bunch and from day one, that like of her slowly fading to being complacent. And then realizing that, that wasn't enough. Again, most of the time, by day 4 or 5 we were already arguing. I was already yelling. I was already being jealous. It was already becoming volatile. Heck, with the last girlfriend, we were arguing before we even started dating.

This time its different.

We have been friends for at least a good half a year. We have been hanging out with each other for a least a good half a year. That's like, ground breaking...for me. I wasn't really looking to date her. I had flirted on and off with various girls, but deep down inside i knew i was ready to get back into it all. I had many things to work out, things that needed to change before i entered another relationship. But i always held on to what a very wise buss once told me. Don't pray that God fixes your problems. Pray that God gives you the opportunities to work through them. (that wasn't the exact quote, it was more specific, but i don't feel like getting into that now.)

I had always thought she was cute, and cool, but i never really had that push to pursue anything. And then over the last couple months we just started talking more. And then we started hanging out more. We hung out like every other day for a couple weeks and i was really starting to like her. I finally asked her on a date (thanks to the many of you who encouraged me time and time again to stop being scared and just do it) and it went really well. We hung out more and more and i realized i really really like this girl. We started dating, and here we are almost two weeks later and i am unable to describe how i feel. I know i know, two weeks isn't that long. I understand that. But you don't understand the differences between the past and the present. Since starting to date her, i have only increased in how much i like her. Its grown, and i feel like everyday it doubles. Its definitely not something i have experienced before. For the first time i feel what its like to truly have trust. And that's not a knock on the girls i have dated in the past (one of them is completely trust worthy), but its more so thanks to the fact that i now trust God. I trust that his way and will is true. This is the first time i prayed about Gods will and weather i should get into this relationship. This is the first time Ive involved God in my relationship. And that has built a trust i have never experienced. And that's from both sides. I trust her and its a good feeling. Its also good to feel trusted. Its good that i can be great friends with a past girlfriend, and Stephanie has no problem with it. Its good that she isn't HAVING to know what I'm doing every second of the day, and that allows me to want to tell her what I'm doing. Its good to know that i cant hang out with my friend still and not have to worry about her worrying about what I'm doing. And its good that i don't worry about the same things. And its good that i don't have to know what she is doing every second of the day. Its nice that i don't have to spend every day with her because i trust her and know she isn't going to wrong me the one day we don't hang out. (sounds pathetic i know, i had really bad trust problems in the past, and i caused very pathetic situations because of that.) I haven't lied to her once. That is a big thing for me. I don't have to lie and have this elephant sized lie always in the room gnashing my brain at how bad a person i am. She takes me for who i am, and that's one of the biggest gifts God can give me. There is a lot i don't tell even my closest friend because many of them will look down on me. (how many times do i catch flak for simply watching a movie with the opposite sex?) Its not like that with her. She likes me for me, and it really helps to have someone around like that. And i like her for her, and its really nice to be with someone i appreciate so much. Its just different. Its nice. Its exciting. Its fun. Its authentic. Its smile inducing. Its real.

Again. I know its only been two weeks. But its been a very telling two weeks for me personally. Laugh at what you want. But through my knowledge of the past i can tell a lot from the first two weeks of my relationships. And that is why i am so excited this time. Two weeks or whatever, i am happy.

I will stop now. ;p

Saturday, October 4, 2008

Im not afraid, at least not to die. Im afraid to live and not remember why.

So i was thinking about it this morning as i crawled into work. Many people want to die in their sleep. Its supposedly painless, you don't really know it happens, and your supposed to be at peace.

I want to die in my sleep. But i think its for a different reason.

You see everyday i wake up at 4 in the morning. And everyday i wish i were still asleep. At about 3 in the afternoon I'm still bobbing my head as i drive home, trying to stay awake. I get home and there are too many things on my mind that my brain wont let me sleep. I try to go to sleep. I try. I'm completely exhausted, and yet i cant sleep. I want to sleep. All day long i want to sleep. From the moment i wake up to the moment i do finally get to bed, i want to sleep. And thus enters dieing in my sleep. Its pretty much a wish come true. I want to be able to sleep as long as i want, which sometimes could be days or weeks. Sometimes i wish i could sleep through the whole summer. If i die in my sleep, then that's like....perfect! I will be doing the one thing that my mind and body can both agree on as supremely valuable. Sleep. I will fall asleep, happy, and then there it is, i wont wake up. I will essentially get to sleep forever. What a perfect way to end this life on this earth. Sleeping it out. It sounds like the best kick off party to heaven that i could ask for. You hear about people getting killed in sports or doing dangerous activities, and after they die, friends and family console each other by saying "he/she died doing what they loved most." Well i guess that would be it for me. I would die doing one of the things i love most.




Also i got one more thing i need to say. I was on this site called fullapologies.com the other day and it really got to me. So i am going to say this here and now, and if it ever happens i beg you to refer everyone to this.

If i ever get killed, by anyone. Be it a drunk driver, a drunk friend, a stranger who wasn't paying attention, or just anyone for that matter. And if they live. And if they apologise. I'm begging you. Please forgive them. Please do not cast them out. Please do not abandon them. Please show them love. People make mistakes. Sadly sometimes that costs peoples lives. If i am one of those lives. If that happens to me. Then its Gods will. I'm begging you to have no animosity towards who killed me. I'm begging you to show that person love and comfort, as unless its a murder, they probably feel just as horrible about it. It hurts losing someone you love because they were killed. I cant even begin to imagine the kind of hurt it would feel to know that you unintentionally killed someone. That you unintentionally not only took that persons life, but you caused pain and misery in so many others lives because of it. That has to feel far worse. So please, i beg you. If it ever happens, please forgive. Please love. Please.

Friday, October 3, 2008

How to waste amazing opportunities.

Most people that know me, know that i have an almost obsessive addiction to the UFC (Ultimate Fighting Championship.) Well, the UFC has a reality show call The Ultimate Fighter (TUF). On TUF they bring in 16 most of the time unknown fighters to fight in a tournament to win a UFC six figure contract. They bring these 16 fighters in for six weeks to live in a house together, train under current UFC fighters, and fight in the tourney. They live in this house, with no contact to the outside world, no cell phones, no T.V., nothing to read, just simply nothing. They live in Vegas but aren't allowed to leave the house unless the president takes them somewhere or they leave to train.

For some people, this is a dream come true. If i ever fight, if i ever am decent at it, it will be something i work towards. I would love to be on that show. I would love to train with UFC fighters. I would love to have the opportunity to win a contract with the UFC. Its something i really really would want and desire to do.

Here comes the frustration.

So they lock these guys away in this house with nothing. You know what they do have? An unlimited supply of alcohol. So this guy, Junie browning or something like that, takes one step into the house and has a bottle of beer in his hand. He follows that up with vodka, rum, and everything else he could find. He goes on this spree, of being funny, to destroying things in the house, to trying to pick fights, to not being able to stand and he starts crying. The kid needs help, yes. He needs love, yes.

My problem with this is, its a huge waste of opportunity for someone else. Someone else would love to be in this guys shoes and he is wasting it away. Not only that, but this is not good for the sport. In a time where the goal is to make MMA (Mixed Martial Arts) the most popular sport in the country, they are promoting some drunkard who is the farthest thing away from role model. Instead of focusing on the hard training, the knowledge of the professional fighters, and the good attitudes of some of the other guys in the house. They focus on Junie and his drunken escapades. Why? Because it makes for good t.v. You know they wont even let people bring their bibles into the house? And yet they let them have supply to unlimited amounts of alcohol. Because its better for T.V. Because its better for the ratings. Because more people will tune in next week to see what Junie does next. It makes me sick. This is not what the sport needs. And it makes me very sad.

Sadly, being the hypocrite i am. I will tune in next week, to see Junie's antics. To what a drunken fool blow away the opportunity i would kill for.

Oh T.V. Oh world.

Tired

I cant get enough sleep.

Its not good when, you know that you need sleep, but you refuse to go to bed, because that means you have to wake up in the morning and go back to work. :(

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Shine

I step outside into the light
The sun is bright, I close my eyes
The summer caught me by surprise
and now I'm left here waiting
for you to tell me how it is
If I could only get a kiss
I could make you take a risk
on a boy who wants this
And now the sun has sunk below
The evening wind now starts to blow
I catch the scent of you're perfume
It lifts me higher than the moon

I'll be fine if you stay by my side...

Never felt this way in my whole life
Never had this feeling before tonight
I can't get you off my mind
Cause you shine, Girl
Oh you know you shine

Your eyes are brighter than the sun
They make me see that you're the one
Your smile takes my breath away
and leaves me with nothing to say
You aren't like any other girl
that I've met in this whole world
You're so much more than they can be
So won't you please just be with me?

I'll be fine if you stay the night...

Never felt this way in my whole life
Never had this feeling before tonight
I can't get you off my mind
Cause you shine, Girl
Oh you know you shine

And I'd give up forever to see the day
Where the two of us both could just walk away
hand in hand...

Never felt this way in my whole life
Never had this feeling before tonight
I can't get you off my mind
Cause you shine, Girl
Oh you know you shine

Never felt this way in my whole life
(You sine)
Never had this feeling before tonight
(Oh you know you shine)
I can't get you off my mind
(You shine)
Cause you shine, Girl
Oh you know you shine

Controversial? Check.

http://articles.moneycentral.msn.com/Investing/HomeMortgageSavings/designing-the-100000-baby.aspx#pageTopAchor

Read this article and give me some feedback on what you think. Mainly about the first page.

Personally i think it is absurd to take the creation process out of god's hands and into our own. I fear for the future and what this could lead too. I know there are many people out there, non believers and believers alike that are, with the right amount of money, going to do something like this, and it just scares me. I could see it creating two very separate classes of people. Where the enhanced look down on the natural. Where the enhanced have a ticket to the upper class, and the natural plunge into lower class because they are beat in every facet of life by the higher intelligence, highly athletic, perfect people. Will then it force everyone to need to enhance? I wont do it. But will my kids? Will their kids?

What will God think, about us taking the creation process out of his hands?

I have many questions about this.

Let me know what you guys think, whether your for or against it speak up. :)

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Some of the things, in my head.

I have all these negative thoughts running through my head, and i really want to blog about them. Sadly though, this just isn't the place to do it. Not about these particular thoughts. Ive deleted 20 sentences now. I don't want to be that kind of guy. I don't want to play those kind of games. I don't want to be that kind of friend, or as it may be now, that kind of acquaintance. I wish i were a skilled writer so that i could truly articulate whats inside. So that i could make a perfect transition from thoughts to paper.

People make me sad.

I am so thankful for my girlfriend. Something was brought to my attention, that may have been offensive to her, and i mustered up the courage to apologize. I don't know how i did it, but its something that as a guy, specially one that thinks the way i do, its not an easy thing to do. I would have never apologized like that to any of my exes. Its no offence to them, its just, there is something about her and this relationship that i want to do everything i can to do whats right. So i apologized. She is amazing. She thanked me, and told me i didn't need to apologize. And that she agreed with me about what may have been offensive to her that wasn't. I guess doing the right thing reaps good rewards.

I am scared to make mistakes in life. What scares me more is knowingly making them. Doing something, and continuing to do something, that i know will have dire consequences in the end, and yet continuing to make them. Its a weakness that i haven't figured out how to defeat. The ability to defeat a routine.

This may come as a shock due to recent exploits that people don't agree with, but i was raised to respect women. I was raised never to lay a hand on one out of anger. I know i talk a big game and say things like I'm going to beat you up, but i promise you its all in fun and never serious. I was raised to let women go first, to open doors, and to use my please and my thank yous. Again despite what many may now think about me, i have grown on my own to respect women physically, mentally, and verbally. Bitch is a female dog. Slanged it is meant in an utmost demeaning way and i hate it when it is used about women. Which is why i don't listen to rap music. I have used the word once or twice towards a girl and i really, really despise myself for it. Because it is ONLY used with malicious intent. It has no descriptive meaning, it can only be used to hurt. There is one person i have used it towards that reads this blog, you know who you are, and i just hope you know i am deeply sorry. You knew that i despised that word and how i told you i would never say it to you. And at a time where i was being a complete prick i wanted to hurt you as bad as i could, and with the knowledge of how serious i knew that you knew i hated that word, i used it against you. And i am very sorry. Whenever i learn something about how men used to treat women, i try my hardest to emulate that. Back when we treated them like gold, like princesses, like something to be treasured. Its a difficult battle, because the world is changing so quickly. But i do my best. And obviously i fail at times.

I should try and work more, but i just have to many thoughts. I don't want to write them all down, because then no one will read them. So i will go now.

Friday, September 26, 2008

Reds Anatomy.

I watched a T.V. show last night and just couldn't help but write about it. I'm not going to name it specifically because i know many many people like it, but lets just say it was a certain colors ANATOMY. ;p Now, i am normally very GREY when it comes to the things i watch, but sometimes i get this feeling that i should be more strict with myself.

ANY way.

As i watched this certain show i wondered how it really affects those that watch it. The way the shows main characters talked about things (such as sex) practically said to the audience hey, its cool to go do these things that you shouldn't, everyone does it. Take for example the constant banter about having stress sex with someone other then your husband or wife. They talked about it so casually, like eventually it was a given to happen, and its completely OK. There were so many times where i found out (through the people i was watching it with) that practically everyone has slept with everyone. Cause that is a great show! ?? I mean when it boiled down to it, the show last night wasn't even really about the struggles of keeping the people in the car accidents alive. That was put as the backdrop to the real story, which was one lady's best friend had slept with her husband and going through the process of having to tell her right then and their and how they were going to respond. You know what really got to me? One of the girls (who liked a guy who slept with her sister.... ??) said this little gem of EFFING CRAP about cheating. "You know, its not really cheating that matters. Its how you make up for it." ARE YOU KIDDING ME? THE CHEATING DOESN'T MATTER? You want to watch an intriguing medical show? Go watch House. Where the main story is about whats going on to the patient! As i watched this show, and commercials for others, (such as sex in the city, don't even get me started on this show which is all about women being dirty friggin sluts) i thought to myself, it is so wrong that these shows are so popular and win awards. I pray that parents do not let their kids watch these shows because they will grow up thinking cheating and random sex and being a effing slut is OK. Look if you watch these shows, I'm not bashing on you. You can do whatever you want, and you enjoy a show completely centered around fornication. That's OK. I like movies about drugs. I like movies about debauchery. Those aren't good for our youth either. I'm just praying that the girls that love these shows don't act like the girls on them.

Just please don't be a friggin hypocrite. Its so funny how if i am watching a movie that maybe in one scene has a sex scene, or better yet for 10 seconds shows boobs (like you've never seen any before?), its inappropriate. But yet watching two hours of a show completely highlighting fornication is OK.

What a trashy world we live in, that these have to be the topics of interest that we love so dearly. But, sex sells right? And lets all (including myself) by into it.




~edit~

Look. If i offended anyone, i apologize. BUT. I do not take anything i said back. Because i meant what i said, down to every single word. I'm sorry if you feel its out of place for me to use the word slut when talking about certain women on certain shows, and what i don't want our youth to grow up to. I'm sorry if you feel it is demeaning or whatever. I simply use it in the same way that i call people hypocrites or liars. I mean it in the way that it describes the word in the dictionary. ( A person, especially a woman, considered sexually promiscuous). So if you have a problem for me stating the truth, then I'm sorry you feel that way. But i don't take it back. I don't intend it in a way that is meant to disapprove of loving them, because i know that women i would consider sexually promiscuous (see wouldn't it have been easier to just say slut?) need just as much love as the rest of us. I have friends who i care deeply about that fall into that category. Just as i call out many times how i think many many people are hypocrites. Its not in a anti-love kind of way. I do love them, and want to help. But if your going to read this entire post and then pick out the word slut and try and get on my case about the one word because it upsets you that oh no I'm picking on one of your favorite TV shows, then i invite you to not read my posts anymore. Because i never have and never will censor myself about what i feel is right or wrong just because someone else feels the opposite as i do. Just so you know, i write things that go against my own favorite t.v. shows as well. Such as the office and the phrase "that's what she said." If it calls for it, i will use the word slut again. I may use the word whore, prostitute, and hooker. I mean, if that's what the person is, then i will have no hesitation to use those words. So i am sorry some of you took offence. But I'm warning you its going to happen again, and if you cant handle it, then as i said before. I invite you to not read my blog anymore.

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Its things like this that really really piss me off.

OMAHA, Neb. - Eleven children ranging in age from 1 to 17 were left at hospitals Wednesday under Nebraska's unique safe haven law, which allows caregivers to abandon youngsters as old as 19 without fear of prosecution.

Nine of the children came from one family. The six boys and three girls were left by their father, who was not identified, at Creighton University Medical Center's emergency room. Unrelated boys ages 11 and 15 also were surrendered Wednesday at Immanuel Medical Center.

The law, which went into effect in July, initially was intended to protect infants. In a compromise with senators worried about arbitrary age limits, the measure was expanded to include the word "child," which wasn't defined. Some have interpreted this to mean anyone under the age of 19.

At least 14 children have been abandoned under the state's safe haven law since it took effect.

Todd Landry, director of Health and Human Services' division of Children and Family Services, said that in nearly every case, the parents who left their children felt overwhelmed and had decided they didn't want to be parents anymore. None of the kids dropped off so far has been in danger, Landry said.

The children surrendered Wednesday are OK, said Kathie Osterman, spokeswoman for the Nebraska Department of Health and Human Services. She didn't know why they had been abandoned. Further details weren't immediately available.

Nebraska was the last state in the nation to adopt a safe-haven law. Under previous law, a parent who abandoned a baby could have been charged with child neglect or abandonment, both misdemeanors, or child abuse, a felony.

State Sen. Arnie Stuthman said he introduced the bill intending to protect infants. In a compromise with senators worried about arbitrary age limits, the measure was expanded.

Abandoning teenagers was not the original intent of the law, Stuthman said Thursday.

"People are leaving them off just because they can't control them," he said. "They're probably in no real danger, so it's an easy way out for the caretaker." (WHAT!, ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!!! I CANT STAND PEOPLE!)