Give me your eyes

For a while now i have wanted to draw closer to the people i am in contact with often. There are a few people that i would call friends that I'm not to close to that i would like to be. A few people that i know that aren't exactly on a great path and could be headed for trouble. I want to help. There are people i care about that could really use god and i would love to be his tool to bring him to them. But ever since dating my ex i am terrified to do it. I tried to show her my god, and it started off really well. And then i started getting frustrated because i couldn't just beat her over the head with god. I needed to slow down and take it one step at a time, and i just wasn't patient enough to do that. I am scared because if i couldn't do whats right for someone i cared enough to be in a relationship with (gonna have to listen to god next time and go with the whole equally yoked thing ;p), how can i do it for someone I'm just friends with. Not only that but my recent struggles with the hypocrisy of Christians has really put a stain on how i view people in this world. It has tarnished my image of what i would like to call good people and has really lead me to care less about humanity in general, christian or not. And this feeling has lead me to write off trying to help anybody. It has lead me to not get into peoples lives, it has lead me to not show those non believers i care about, that i care. Be it the guy at work. Or some of my newer friends that i have been talkin to the last couple months. It lead me to give up and subdue this passion i have to show god to these people. I have all but accepted my failure and given up hope that i could help people at this point in my life, until yesterday i realized for the past two days god had been trying to remind me of that passion and burn it inside me a little bit.

Tuesday i was nearing the end of work and i got the song "Give me your eyes" by Brandon Heath stuck in my head. It came out of nowhere but it stuck in my head for maybe the last 20 minutes of work. After work i went to my car and once the radio came on, the very first thing i heard was the very beginning of "Give me your eyes" on the radio. It was absolute perfect timing as i heard the song in its entirety. Its like someone was watching me and the moment i turned my car on they pushed the play button so that i wouldn't miss a note. At first i didn't think much of it, just a cool coincidence. But then yesterday once again the last 20 minutes of work i got "Give me your eyes" stuck in my head again. As i walked out to my car singing it i thought about how much i enjoyed that song. I turned my car and, and EXACTLY like the day before without missing a note "Give me your eyes" came right on. At this point i was thinking there had to be something more to it. So i listened to the words and let them sit inside of me for a while. I grasped the meaning of everything that had happened and the coincidences i like to call God. He was speaking to me. Trying to get that fire burning again. I need to love. I need to love and i need to be loved. I need to love, to be loved, to care, and to be cared about, i need to share God, and have God shared with me. I need to look at the world from the view of love that God has instructed me to do.

About a month or two ago after hanging around so many couples all the time i was really itching to find a girlfriend. When i dug into my feelings and why i felt like i needed a girlfriend, it had nothing to do with any of the right reasons for having a girlfriend. I simply needed someone to care about. I didn't need someone to care about me. I didn't need that search for something long term. I just needed someone i could care about. And because i have been so upset at the people in this world, i couldn't just care about people. So i subsided to feeling like i needed a girlfriend to pour that into. A girlfriend to care about. Fortunately God knows what he is doing. Lucky for me God was like NO! God was going to have it his way, and in due time, was going to show me the mistakes in my thought process. And while its been a while that i have understood that i don't need a girlfriend, i am just now understanding why i don't need one specific person to care about. (not that a girlfriend is out of the question or anything, i just don't NEED it like i thought i did ;p) And that's because i have many specific people that i can care about, if i just let myself. If i just open my eyes and start caring about the world around me, and peoples lives, stories, troubles and accomplishments, i can find people that i can pour every once of effort into. And i am happy with that. I am more than content with that. Its exciting.

I am thankful that God knows what he is doing, because i sure don't. I can only imagine how much of a mess i would have made my life if i was driving.

Here is the song lyrics:


Looked down from a broken sky
Traced out by the city lights
My world from a mile high
Best seat in the house tonight
Touched down on the cold black tile
Hold on for the sudden stop
Breath in the familiar shock
Of confusion and chaos
Are those people going somewhere?
Why have I never cared?

Chorus:
Give me your eyes for just one second
Give me your eyes so I can see
Everything that I keep missing
Give me your love for humanity
Give me your arms for the broken hearted
Wasnt it far beyond my reach?
Give me your heart for the once forgotten
Give me your eyes so I can see
again
again
yeah
yeah

Step out on a busy street
See a girl and our eyes meet
Does her best to smile at me
To hide whats underneath
Theres a man just to her right
Black suit and a bright red tie
To ashamed to tell his wife
Hes out of work
Hes buying time
Are those people going somewhere?
Why have I never cared?

Chorus
Give me your eyes for just one second
Give me your eyes so I can see
Everything that I keep missing
Give me your love for humanity
Give me your arms for the broken hearted
Wasnt it far beyond my reach?
Give me your heart for the once forgotten
Give me your eyes so I can see
again
again
yeah
yeah


Ive Been there a million times
A couple of million eyes
Just moving past me by
I swear I never thought that I was wrong
Well I want a second glance
So give me a second chance
To see the way you see the people all alone

Chorus (x2)
Give me your eyes for just one second
Give me your eyes so I can see
Everything that I keep missing
Give me your love for humanity
Give me your arms for the broken hearted
Wasnt it far beyond my reach?
Give me your heart for the once forgotten
Give me your eyes so I can see
again
again
yeah
yeah